Guilt Trip

Just 4 more workdays to go until the switch! I am getting more excited by the day. When the bosses talk about all the surveys and paperwork and projects coming up, I just breathe a sigh of relief knowing that I won't have to worry about any of it! YES! To feel a sense of calm instead of a sense of panic is so great! It's been awhile.

Since I will no longer have a mini-van provided through work, hubby and I had to go look at cars this past weekend. We settled on a car that we have wanted for awhile, but didn't think we could afford. The Lexus IS250. Oh gosh, it is so cute! We test drove a couple other cars at Nissan and looked at an Infiniti. We originally wanted a Hybrid. But neither of us really liked the way they drove. We had almost made up our minds about getting a Nissan Maxima, but thought we should check out the Lexus again just to be sure. As we strolled through the dealership, we spotted a used 2006 that was closer to our price range than a brand new one. So we took it for a spin and both really liked it! Its a dark charcoal granite color, nicely equipped. And I'll be honest. I feel pretty cool and slightly more attractive when I drive it. Hahaha...

But there is something else that comes along with a brand new car - a little twinge of guilt. Hubby and I talked about how we kind of feel bad getting excited about it or showing it off to people because it seems like we're a little snobby driving around in a Lexus. And we always say first thing that it is used. Just to make sure people don't get the wrong idea or something. Neither of us come from families with any money, so its hard to come to grips with buying new cars or other expensive things, for that matter.

But I have decided that we deserve it! We both have worked so hard over the last few years and we should have things we want. Anyone should! I think that most people feel a little guilty on some level when they make big purchases or have fancy things. (Unless you just have an enormous sense of entitlement). I am guessing it is somewhat normal. I'm just going to try to enjoy the trip (minus the guilt) and appreciate that new car smell.

Well, its new to me!